Vicious love

  Tolstoy and Sophia were married. On September 16, 1862, Tolstoy proposed to Sofia, and they were married on the 23rd.
   Sophia, the daughter of a Moscow court doctor, has a wealthy, pampered family and a well-rounded education. On the eve of the wedding, Tolstoy forced Sophia to read the diaries of his interactions with other women, the details of which were lewd and unsightly. Sophia wrote in her diary after her marriage that Tolstoy’s diary made her feel terrified and disgusted. Newly married Yan Er, Tolstoy was full of passion, but Sophia was always full of grievances and pain in her heart, saying that Tolstoy gave her “vicious love”.
   After marriage, Sophia changed from a slender noble lady to a trivial housekeeper in Tolstoy’s manor. After marrying Sophia, Tolstoy resigned from the housekeeper. In Sophia’s daily life, in addition to busy shopping and bookkeeping, she also fills the gap when the chef is drunk. Before going to bed every night, she had to transcribe Tolstoy’s manuscript of the day, copy out the words of the dragon and phoenix, and hand it over to the publishing house. Because Tolstoy liked to revise manuscripts at any time, and even made corrections on the manuscripts that were transcribed, she had to transcribe a manuscript several times. Sophia copied the manuscript of “War and Peace” four times.
   Sophia complained a lot about her marriage. She paid a lot after marriage, but she didn’t hear a word of thanks from Tolstoy, and she didn’t receive a gift from him during the New Years and holidays. The last thing she could bear was the Tolstoy psychopath. They had a total of 13 children, five of whom died. Sophia wrote in her diary that Tolstoy was content to see the child die. Tolstoy himself admitted in his diary that his happiest moments were watching people die.
   Sophia said that Tolstoy was very concerned about the misfortune and suffering of the world and placed deep sympathy. He enjoyed the pleasure brought by sympathy, which would make him have a strong sense of satisfaction. Tolstoy could not allow Sophia to be happy. Tolstoy always had a sullen face when she appeared elated. Conversely, when she was sad, Tolstoy became gentle and kind, with a look of happiness in his eyes.
   In 1872, their sixth child, son Peter, was born. The doctor reminded Sophia that her body was too weak to conceive again. Tolstoy was displeased when he heard the news, he said to Sofia: “If you want to have a child, what do I want you to do?” In order to please her husband, Sofia had to continue the pregnancy. Since then, the couple watched as their three children, Peter, Nicola and Varvara, died.
   In 1906, daughter Maria died of pneumonia. Tolstoy carefully observed the whole process of Death’s capture of her, and then showed a satisfied expression. Just as Maria closed her eyes, he turned away without even saying goodbye to his daughter, just as he did when his youngest son Ivan died in 1895. Tolstoy also wrote about this extreme psychological experience in his diary.
   In September 1906, Sophia suffered from a malignant tumor. Daughter Alexandra wrote in her diary that, except for Tolstoy, the family was in a hurry, and they asked a doctor to come home to treat Sofia. Tolstoy watched with ecstasy as his wife died. After the diagnosis, the doctor told Tolstoy that the tumor should be surgically removed as soon as possible, otherwise it would be life-threatening. Tolstoy was displeased and objected. Eventually, after being persuaded by doctors and other relatives, Tolstoy agreed to the operation. The doctor showed Tolstoy the tumor removed by surgery, he just glanced coldly and turned away…
   Tolstoy’s view of death is also reflected in “Anna Karenina”. The ending he set for Anna was that she abandoned her husband for her new love, suffered inwardly, and finally died tragically under the wheels of a train. Tolstoy admired Anna after death in his unique way: curly hair, handsome face, half-opened red lips, eyes widened because of the desire for life… In Tolstoy’s heart, Anna was guilty , shall not be forgiven. You can imagine how satisfied he was after writing “Anna Karenina”.

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