Happy on the busy
Life is a one-way journey. The understanding of the finiteness and non-repeatability of life is originally a great pain in life, which belongs to the category of “unable to seek”. Since time is closely connected with the process of human life, all actions must be carried out in this chain of events. Therefore, throughout the ages, people have always been particularly sensitive to the issue of time and paid more attention to it. The ancients said: “I can’t wait to hang a long rope in the blue sky, so that it can be tied to the day when it flies west.” He also imagined that a Duke of Luyang would be stationed in the sun, making the setting sun rise ninety miles back. All wise men and philosophers cherish time. Of course, it can also be said the other way around, cherishing life and cherishing time like gold is the only way for all successful people.
In the game with Old Man Time, there is never a winner. People’s only choice is to hold on to the present for a longer or shorter period of time. Sun Xiaohe, a poet in the Qing Dynasty, has a poem of Qijue: “It is easier to chant poems with lamps, so I plan to go to bed later tonight. If Dao Xing’s long oil is gone, I will take care of it from now on!” This is the painful epiphany of those who have experienced it. The past has melted into smoke and can no longer be used by me; the future has not yet come, and it cannot be driven by others; only the present truly belongs to me.
Of course, it can also be said that the present held in the hand is actually empty, because time has not stayed for a moment, and the present has passed in the blink of an eye. But in this way, the heart is close to nothingness, so I still have to say, instead of lamenting the premature death of youth, it is better to start now and cherish the minutes and seconds that are constantly being lost. “Eastern corner is gone, Sangyu is not late”, “The chicken that lost the morning, thinks of mending and crows again”.
Some young people find it incomprehensible to see that some elderly people are still competing for every second, and every inch is a race. What’s the point of fighting? This reflects their differences in two aspects: one is their different value orientations; the other is their different personal experiences, just as a millionaire can’t understand the plight of a poor man who is “shy and shy”. There are many precious things in the world, when people own them, people often don’t know how to cherish them, or even ignore their existence; only when they are lost, will they feel its preciousness and understand its value.
There are also kind-hearted friends who see that I am working hard day and night and striving hard, so they quote Xiang Liansheng from the Qing Dynasty “Why do you send a lifeless life if you don’t do things that are not beneficial” to advise. My answer is that if this refers to the necessary mediation and entertainment after hard work, it is absolutely necessary and cannot be called “useless”. However, Xiang’s “useless things” refer to filling in lyrics, which was originally an irony. Predecessors commented on his “Yiyun Ci”: “It is full of vigor, full of twists and turns” and “It is almost like no one before”. What a useless place! Moreover, in his short thirty-eight years of life, he has always cherished time like gold, and has never thrown it away for a moment. “Huannian is like flowing water, and I am afraid that the cuckoo will make me old”, this miserable rhetoric expresses his heartfelt aspirations.
People’s pursuit of ideals is very different. Similarly, the experience of interest and happiness is often “like a fish drinking water, knowing whether it is warm or cold”, which is hard for others to embarrass, let alone uniform. The so-called “fun without controversy” is exactly what it means. Some old people regard having grandchildren with sweethearts and laughing together in front of the court as the bliss in their twilight years; there are also many people who either devote themselves to the “Battle of Fangcheng”, or join in the tour of resorts, or hang poles by the lake, or dance in the dance hall, or spend all day with ” A big star with a square face”—the TV screen.
I am different in that I always want to find a quiet place, get rid of all kinds of interference, and read classics, do knowledge, and create with a clear mind, and regard this as the greatest joy of the rest of my life. I always feel that in the past, I shouldered heavy responsibilities and stayed at work all day and night, with little leisure time; now that I have retired at home and put down the burden of work, I can just “recognize my roots” and make “a gift from the beginning” to realize my long-cherished wish. Therefore, except for “three meals and one dream” and one or two hours of walking as must-have items every day, the rest of the time is spent on reading, research, and creation, and occasionally allocates a little necessary time to socialize with literary friends, or to go to school. University lectures, field trips.
I am used to closely combining reading, creation, academic research, and sightseeing. Taking creation and academic study as the classics, taking the footsteps and the inner feelings as the weft, around the topics to be investigated, researched and written, systematically and plannedly read some books on literature, history and philosophy, and penetrate thousands of years with one heart, Make the active emotions obtain a current time and space position, and interpret the scorching life and vivid love affairs through the realistic scenery of “human culture”, and at the same time find and discover yourself from them.
I don’t know what it’s like to be “bored”. Every day is extremely fulfilling, and “busy” is the main theme of life. There are so many classics on the shelf, but I have no time to read them carefully; many excellent film and television works have been recommended by friends repeatedly, but they have no time to appreciate them; many publishing departments have invited manuscripts, but they have not been able to satisfy them all. Yuan Mei, a poet in the Qing Dynasty, said: “It’s not good to be greedy for customers, and it’s not easy to answer people who love books.” He said four things. As for me: Like him, I don’t like to visit others, and I like to read letters; the difference is that I can reply in time, but I am not greedy for guests. This is not because of a withdrawn nature, but because of a reluctance to waste time. My friends also understand that they have to come to me for urgent matters, and they always say that I know you are busy, so I only interrupt you for five minutes. I always walk alone when I take a walk, in order to prepare for creation and think about problems while walking.
In this way, is life too poor, monotonous, and lacking the fun it deserves? Whenever I hear this kind of inquiry from my friends, I always smile knowingly, and playfully answer the question in the language of Zhuangzi: “You are not me, how do you know that I don’t take pleasure in it?” There is a very incisive sentence: “If you want to be leisurely, you should also work hard on the word ‘labor’. Those who are able to work can appreciate leisurely.” In the past, I didn’t understand this sentence, but now I realize that labor and leisure are complementary to each other. of. Leisure is a state of mind, and the production of this state of mind depends on fullness and satisfaction. The result of doing nothing is that the body is idle and the mind is uncomfortable and bored. Only when you have something to send, you can be comfortable. Reading, creating, and studying are themselves a kind of sustenance, and they are actually a kind of transformation, turning dust and mundane affairs into interesting creative labor, turning noise into tranquility, turning emptiness into fullness, and turning troubles into enlightenment.
More than 20 years ago, I was seriously ill and almost kissed the god of death, but now I am still stubborn. A friend asked me for advice on how to keep in good health. I thought about it and said that it is better to “borrow flowers to present Buddha”, and I told my friend about Fangcheng. Mr. Fang Cheng, a master of cartoons, has a self-portrait. On the screen, the elderly Fang is riding a bicycle briskly. I wrote a doggerel about “missing legs”: “Life has always been very ordinary, riding a bicycle to draw and write articles. One word for health preservation: busy.